Thursday’s
Thought
Rebirth
of the self – in any form or variety – is essentially letting go of one version
to embrace the next. Sure, it’s a generally an upgrade in some sense, as
transitions often encourage us to become greater, better, more, but as such, a transition
is still a difficult and sometimes frustrating experience.
This
flux of transition is a theme that has accompanied me over the last eighteen
months as I’ve navigated my way through graduate school, life as a
thirty-something divorcee, trying to get a handle on what is it that calls to
my spirit, what will sustain and fulfill me, and ultimately what will make me happy.
As
late, in realizing that the transitionary period is as much a journey of the
self as is the ultimate destination, I have become aware of the fact that these
actions have helped the over-arching theme of self-betterment, but I’ve been in
too much of a rush to get to the next train stop that I’ve forgotten to enjoy
this part.
Shit.
Okay,
all is not lost because I still don’t know what I’m doing with my next
chapters, but damn if I don’t wish I had seen this truth just a bit sooner.
Maybe then I would have found ways to incorporate more joy and less stress into
these last 540-some odd days. Efed’s truth that she shared with me recently
keeps floating back into my brain. It is not happy people who are thankful; it
is thankful people who are happy. Feeling frozen and cold has done little to
help me; it’s only encouraged me to think negative thoughts and find the dark
instead of the light. A little cold snap every now and again is reasonable and
to be expected … but it’s time to thaw!
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